The Owner Of My Heart

.aku cuba mencintaiMU Tuhan..

aku cuba mencintaiMU Tuhan

tapi tidak juga terasa

aku cuba berkali-kali pun

namun aku belum juga jatuh hati denganMU

aku susah hati aku sedih selalu

mengapa terjadi begini

mengapa cintaku padaMU

belum berbunga lagi

sedangkan aku tahu aku akui

nikmatMU terlalu banyak padaku

kalau hendak dihitung

tidak mungkin dihitung..

aku iri hati selalu

cerita dan berita

orang soleh zaman dahulu

hebatnya cinta mereka padaMU

hilang selera makan keranaMU

asyik memuja dan memujiMU

mensucikan dan membesarkan MU

terutama diwaktu malam yang sepi diwaktu orang mimpi mereka memujaMU..merintih padaMU

mengharapkan kasih sayang padaMU

air mata mereka membasahi pipi

adakalanya menitis kebumi

mereka merasa Engkau adalah segala-galanya

Engkau adalah hidup mati mereka

Engkau adalah dibibir mereka

Engkau adalah hati jantung mereka

tapi aku tidak begitu

ANGKUH KERAS hatiku

hingga kini aku belum mencintai kekasih agungmu

baru aku sedar..

cinta padaMU adalah anugerah

dan hidayahMU

bertuahlah dan berbahagialah

orang yang Engkau anugerahkan kecintaan padaMU

aku bilakah lagi Tuhan....

dapat sedikit pun jadilah...

wahai TUHAN al-Hannan wal Mannan...

Why is it hard to give you heart entirely to Allah? Or in a simple word, why is it hard to fall in love with your God? Truly, the love of Allah is need of time. Let us reflect ourselves, shall we? First, we are unaware of our God and ignorant of the close relationship. Second, we are lack of desire to be close to our Creator.

Today, people are arrested by the love of 'dunya'. I do not deny that I am one of them. If I were to say to my friend, my love to you is because of Allah, did I really meant my love is only for Allah? He is only the one to be loved, to be remembered, to be admired, to be worshipped... Did all my actions express that?

When I am in the middle of study, and when the call of the prayer comes, did I immediately leave my study? No. So, do my heart belongs to Allah better than anything?

When I am in the middle of my beauty sleep, and suddenly I wake up.. I decided to continue to be in my dreamland rather than doing the Qiamullail. So, do my heart belongs to Allah better than anything?

When I struggling hard in my study, my worries are "What will people say if I get a low g.p.a"? "I must show that I'm very capable in my studies besides all the da'wah works I did" "I am aiming for the first class during my graduation." " What if I didnt get any promotion after I graduated if my result is too poor?". But the thoughts and feeling that do not haunt me is "I study hard only and only to get the blessing of Allah" "because Allah commands me to study" Putting aside the thought of impressing people.

So, do my heart belongs to Allah better than anything?

Let us do self reflection.. Compare the love we give to human? Are we being bias with our own God?